Monday, April 26, 2010

The Rogers Family

We went on a quick trip to Louisville last week. Here's a picture of the girls at Paul's grave. More pictures of our trip to come!

Saturday, April 10, 2010

Happy 5th Birthday, Paul

Certain birthdays seem especially significant. Some birthdays deserve a party. Forty. Eighteen. Thirteen.


Five years ago, we were looking forward to the most party-worthy birthday of all – our first-born son’s actual birth. Ladies had already thrown him parties in Louisville, Dunsmuir, Jeffersonville, and Riverside—he was able to enjoy the parties snuggled up inside his Mom. His room was ready. His young Dad was nervous but so excited.

Five years ago, I was working the third shift at UPS, and remember checking my pager fifty times a night to see if Stephanie had gone into labor yet. I remember sitting on the floor next to the crib in his empty, blue room before I headed to work. I would look at that crib and let the overwhelming feeling of responsibility flow over me. I would look forward to holding him. I would pray with tears in my eyes that God would make me a good Dad.

Five years ago, today, Paul Hudson Rogers was stillborn at Norton hospital in Louisville, Kentucky. I remember the ultrasound that failed to find his heartbeat. I prayed, “God help us,” a thousand times that night, and a million times that year. God answered and he helped.

Five years ago, today, we held our beautiful son’s body. Paul was strong. He was big. I wish we had held him longer. But no matter how long we would have held him, I’m sure I’d still feel the same way. Nothing is long enough when all you want is forever.

Five years ago, rather than having a party, we had a funeral. Over one-hundred people came out to celebrate Paul’s short life. I remember most of them. Pastor Cook reminded us that Jesus loves children and of the resurrection of the dead.

Today, is Paul’s fifth birthday. He is still my son, and I am still that same young Dad with tears in my eyes wanting to be the best Dad for him I can be. I can’t throw him a party with cake and baseball and a bunch of his friends. But today we will celebrate Paul’s fifth birthday. We will go out to eat with his little sisters. We will remember him. We will remember Jesus’ love. And we will look forward to the resurrection.

Happy birthday, Paul. Your Mommy and Daddy love you. See you soon.

Friday, April 09, 2010

Easter Pictures and Preschoolers First Haircut

Here are some recent pictures!

Playing outside. 2 in the car doesn't last for very long.

This is the before haircut picture. Since she was born, we have not touched one hair on her pretty little head. It was time. Don't worry, we only cut about 2 inches off.

She was so brave going into the haircut, but well, our little Hopey struggles with the unknown so when we got to the salon she started to freak out a bit. The sucker helped her pull it together enough to sit in the chair and realize everything was okay.

The after picture with stick on earrings and a balloon.

We had a 2nd annual Good Friday luncheon with our friends. It's a sweet time for us all to get together.

Trying to get a picture of the kids.

Me and my girls.

Our family egg hunt. Anna got really into it!

Hopey with her full basket.

Easter morning picture. Unfortunately we didn't get a better one than this.

A couple of days ago, Anna learned how to smile for the camera on demand. Yay!

Bunny and Duckie towels from Grammy and Pappy for Easter (and two sweet girls!).

Wednesday, April 07, 2010

I've found this to be true...

"Spiritual nature, like bodily nature, will be served; deny it food and it will gobble poison." - C.S.Lewis

Saturday, April 03, 2010

The Easter Song

We like good music. It's old school, but a great Easter morning song. The song starts at about minute #2. And, Keith Green has a pretty cool story. Thanks for introducing me to him and Rich Mullins, Mark.

Enjoy, and happy Easter!

" For our sake he made him to be sin who knew no sin, so that in him we might become the righteousness of God." 2 Corinthians 5:21

Thursday, April 01, 2010

Happy Easter - The Resurrection

Christianity is so weird. It really is. Our culture really doesn't talk about death, or blood or violence. Nor does our culture seem to think or talk much of the supernatural realm.

Over the past few weeks we've been reading to Hope (and kind of Anna) about the death and resurrection of Jesus from her Bible story books. Of course she has many questions. Why are the people being so unkind to Jesus? Why is his mommy crying when she sees Him on the cross? Why does Jesus look so sad? Is the Angel scary? Why are the people in the upper-room sad? Why does it get so dark?

I love her questions. Its really allows me to think about the events surrounding Jesus' death in new ways. But I must admit that sometimes it just sounds so odd coming out. At no other time would I talk to my girls about the gruesome details of someone's death. And about no other person will I say that they became alive again after being dead.

But after reading some on the resurrection and thinking on it again tonight, I am reminded of just how beautiful and necessary it is. Death defeated, once and for all.

And my favorite part? Knowing that I was once dead - without hope - in my sins. Lost. I don't have to think very long about my day before I know that I am a sinner. Before I know that I have been impatient with my family, unkind, unloving, selfish and self-centered. But God brought me back to life. He gave me a new heart, a new life in Christ, and forgiveness. Forgiveness and a fresh start everyday and for forever. I've been resurrected.

"7 But whatever gain I had, I counted as loss for the sake of Christ. 8 Indeed, I count everything as loss because of the surpassing worth of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord. For his sake I have suffered the loss of all things and count them as rubbish, in order that I may gain Christ 9 and be found in him, not having a righteousness of my own that comes from the law, but that which comes through faith in Christ, the righteousness from God that depends on faith— 10 that I may know him and the power of his resurrection, and may share his sufferings, becoming like him in his death, 11 that by any means possible I may attain the resurrection from the dead."

Philippians 3:7-11